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The singer-songwriter Rufus Wainwright has done things his way, struggling, at times, with himself and the world. Yet, he says, these rough periods haven’t made him tough.

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Rufus Wainwright
Rufus Wainwright

Rufus Wainwright is a critically acclaimed songwriter and performer known for his intimate and honest original music. His parents, Loudon Wainwright III and Kate McGarrigle, were both successful folk singers; his sisters Martha Wainwright and Lucy Wainwright Roche are also musicians.

Born in New York, Wainwright spent most of his childhood in Montreal, touring with his mother, aunt, and sister from age 13. Rolling Stone named him Best New Artist in 1998 on the heels of his self-titled debut album. His fifth LP, Release the Stars (2007), was an international commercial success, reaching number 2 in the UK and number 23 on the Billboard charts. His 2007 cover of Leonard Cohen’s “Hallelujah” was a hit on both sides of the Atlantic.

He received his first of two Grammy nominations in 2009 for a live recording of Judy Garland numbers and his second in 2020 for his tenth album, Unfollow the Rules. He has also composed two operas, scores for dance and theater, music for film, and an album of adaptations of Shakespeare sonnets.

Rufus Wainwright’s Website


(Excerpt from “Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk”):

Cigarettes and chocolate milk

These are just a couple of my cravings

Rufus Wainwright loves life and he expresses that love through intimate and frank examinations of his own experiences. Wainwright’s knack for meticulous self-reflection and total candor have fueled three decades of songwriting. He’s played sold-out stadium tours and Elton John once described him as, “the greatest songwriter on the planet.” While behind closed doors, he wrestled with his inner demons, often teetering on the edge of collapse. But he hasn’t collapsed. And today, he’s as surprised as anyone to see just how well it’s all turned out.

Rufus Wainwright: I’m doing a very good job. I’m doing a very good job.

In retrospect, it almost seems like a life in music was inevitable for Rufus Wainwright. He and his sister, Martha, were raised by two of the 1970s’ most well-respected folk musicians, Loudon Wainwright the third and Kate McGarrigle. Songwriting was a way of life for his parents and no topic was off-limits. One day’s fight could become next day’s lyrics, and the wider musical world was never far away. Loudon and Kate were friends with, at the time, other up and coming musicians like Linda Ronstadt and Bruce Springsteen.

Wainwright: So I kind of had this sense of just the workings and the kind of just the, almost the monotony of the business. In a good way. It was very demystified for me growing up. And also, incredibly inspiring, there were songs written about me and I could also let people backstage at the age of four. It was a great upbringing.

But music wasn’t enough to keep Wainwright’s parents together. When Rufus was just three years old, they separated. But their short-lived relationship had a lasting impact on him. While they were together, even something as intimate as watching him breastfeed was fonder for his father’s music. But these sort of potentially scarring experiences didn’t stop Wainwright from writing his own confessional music. If anything, they taught him to draw out the lyrical substance from anything and everything around him.

(Excerpt from “Millbrook”):

The boys and girls of Millbrook

Are on the train from New York

Wearing new hats

Deep in the heart of Dutchess County, bounty

Wainwright: I just had this mechanism instilled within me. I think my parents, to just make, write the best songs you can. Make the most interesting music possible. Go for the artistic jugular above all else.

(Excerpt from “I Eat Dinner”):

I eat dinner at the kitchen table

By the light that switches on

I eat leftovers with mashed potatoes

No more candlelight

No more romance

No more small-talk

When the hunger’s gone

Wainwright: I was a late teenager or in my early twenties when they were writing these amazing songs about, like my mother wrote, “I Eat Dinner” about just being a single mom and having no romantic life. And at that time, and which is one of the masterpieces of that…

AJC: How did that affect you? Because your mom mourned her relationship with your father for a long time, for probably longer than she was with him.

Wainwright: Yes. Oh Yes.

AJC: And you were growing up in that atmosphere.

Wainwright: Yeah. My mother was forever dedicated to my father and not in the healthiest of ways. She definitely suffered from guilt from being divorced. There was, I think for her generation, even though everything was all groovy in the ’70s, and we were “all over this and over that.” There was still a lot of religious…

AJC: Stigma.

Wainwright: Stigma… that sort of built into her being.

AJC: But is that what taught you about what the end of a relationship was?

Wainwright: Well, yeah. I mean, that was a factor. My whole life is littered with breakups.

Rufus Wainwright’s songs give voice to yearning. As a young teenager, he gravitated towards opera. He was drawn to the way the music expressed the raw emotions of life and death. Decades later, he would go on to write his own opera, Prima Donna, about an aging diva reflecting on her long-gone youth. And his early songs reflected these operatic leanings. Big, emotionally-laden oaths to love and loss.

(Excerpt from “Danny Boy”):

You broke my heart

Danny boy

Not your fault

Danny boy

I was had at the doorstep


Like a two to a four-set

Had like poor job in the bible

By God

Wainwright’s forthright songwriting extended to his sexuality. He had grappled with being gay as a teenager, struggling to win the approval of his parents. By the time he signed his first record deal with DreamWorks in his early twenties, he made it clear that he wouldn’t hide his sexuality.

Wainwright: I will attest that once my mind was made up there was no shifting things. The main issue was that it was the ’90s and I was still deathly afraid of AIDS. I just didn’t want this nightmare scenario to occur where I was sick and dying, and then I had to like come out at the same time. It just was so tragic to me that whole scenario. And I was told at that time, by certain people, “Can’t you just be more obtuse about it and maybe say you’re bisexual, or say just like kind of make it a little more mysterious?” And in retrospect, I do believe strongly that if I hadn’t been so honest about it, I would have had far more opportunities to kinda like, blend into the pop world.

AJC: Or bland in.

Wainwright: Bland in, that’s true. That’s a good way to put it. And I don’t regret this decision at all because as I said, now, 20 years later, there’s a legion of people, young and old who were incredibly affected and influenced and inspired by my choice to be brutally honest about who I was.

His record label heavily promoted his debut and the investment paid off. Wainwright launched to massive critical approval. Rolling Stone even named him 1998’s, “Best New Artist”.

Wainwright: It was very auspicious beginning.

AJC: Did that go to your head at all?

Wainwright: Well, yes, completely. And understandably so.

(Excerpt from “California”):

Ain’t it a shame that at the top

Peanut butter and jam they served you

Ain’t it a shame that at the top

Still those soft skin boys can bruise you

Yes, I fell for a stripper

Oh no

But what Rufus Wainwright had in talent, he lacked in maturity. He was completely unprepared for how to navigate his emotions in the midst of his rising celebrity. As he produced his second album, 2001’s, Poses, he was frequently relying on alcohol and drugs, including cocaine and methamphetamines. Wainwright stresses that he wasn’t using substances to escape life so much as to heighten his awareness of it. But he took it too far. At one point his drug use caused him to go temporarily blind and have disturbing hallucinations of his father.

Wainwright: I am amazed at the fact that I’ve done all these things and gone out on all these cliffs and so forth, and live to tell the tale. Now I was going into that territory. I was facing my fears.

AJC: Yeah.

Wainwright: In order to garner information. I mean, I wanted to know what was behind the curtain and so forth.

In 2002, Rufus Wainwright checked into rehab for a month. Once out, he went on a songwriting spree, resulting in two back-to-back albums. 2003’s, Want One, and 2004’s, Want Two. The twin albums were proof that on the other side of his substance abuse, Rufus was energized, ready to tear into the world around him. He wanted more than ever to make music out of his accumulated pain and joy. But he also wrestled with more ambiguous feelings. In the song, “Dinner At Eight,” he processes his difficult relationship with his father.

(Except from “Dinner at Eight”):

So put up your fists

And I’ll put up mine

No running away

From the scene of the crime

God’s chosen a place

Somewhere near the end of the world

Somewhere near the end of our lives

Yet despite this somewhat tortured relationship with his father, Wainwright maintained a close bond with his mother, Kate. Months before she died in 2010, Wainwright told her that he and his husband Jörn, were considering having a baby with Lorca Cohen, a long time family friend, and the daughter of Leonard Cohen. His mom was thrilled.

Wainwright: Once the idea was around, and my mother was also around, and her health was declining, I asked her, I said, “What do you think mom of this concept, of having a baby with Lorca?” And she emphatically stated that I had no choice but to do this. It was sort of a commandment. And I do feel, that’s a multi-pronged kind of response that she gave me. In the sense that, I think, on one hand, she certainly loved the idea of uniting the McGarrigle’s and the Cohen’s and the Wainwright’s. Continuing this dynastic tradition, which I had grown up in.

AJC: She also wanted to know she’d be a grandmother, right?

Wainwright: Yes, being a grandmother, and I think she knew she was gonna die. And the end that there was going to be, and that she was, arguably the strongest, and even my husband, Jörn can attest to this. I mean, she was the most influential person in my life, kind of by a long shot, and she knew that she was gonna be exiting that role. And that for me to have a child would be a way to possibly continue that kind of connection, deep connection. Which I have with Jörn, but it’s still different.

Today, Rufus Wainwright has cultivated his own version of domestic bliss. In his 10th and latest album, 2020’s, Unfollow The Rules, he’s more grounded, but no less sharp as he writes about this next phase of fatherhood and marriage. The musician who made a name for himself with his disarmingly blunt music has discovered a new layer of honest expression. The sort that only comes with the maturity of experience.

(Excerpt from “Trouble in Paradise”):

There’s always trouble in paradise

Don’t matter if your drinks are neat or on ice

There’s always trouble in paradise

Don’t matter if you’re good or bad or mean or awfully nice

Wainwright: Right now, I’m singing better than I ever did. All of those kinds of triumphs and tribulations are sort of—they have managed to instill themselves in my interpretation of songs.

AJC: So it’s wisdom as well as physicality?

Wainwright: It’s a whole load of emotion.

AJC: And life…

Wainwright: Just having gone out there, and what’s interesting about it though, in the end of the day, it doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t make you more kind of implacable. If anything, it makes you more sensitive and more kind of vulnerable as you get older. It’s a great ability to have now. It’s also a little scary.

And Rufus Wainwright thrives by instinctively leaning into what’s scary. Because at his core is what he calls his beast—indefatigable and constantly clawing at the heart of each experience, concerned only with expressing a raw, sometimes brutal honesty.

Wainwright: But that beast is completely oblivious to what people think and what should happen and what the next move should be and just kinda goes for it ferociously. And that is the force that I’ve chosen to lead the parade.

(Excerpt from “Damsel in Distress”):

I hope you find your way

For the sake of what we’ve lost

And that there comes a day

When you realize the precious cost

Yes, I remember smiles

Yes, I remember wiles

Behind the Square of Sloan

Under the English moon you in your disguise

So much

You got exactly that

Will you forever be a damsel in distress

Will you forever be a damsel in distress

Will you forever be a damsel in distress